I’ve been trying to complete my project but it’s taking longer then I thought. Mainly due to finding time coordinating everyone who’s involved schedules. It’s a big difference when you’re working for yourself and working a regular job. Below is a video of my latest update. I’m featuring Ryan Binning on this project along with Morenito one artist to be announced.
Lately it seems hard to focus. But I’m making a commitment to myself to make sure I complete the things I’m supposed to complete. There are only a few outstanding things that need to be taken care of. Financially will be my focus and making sure with smart choices. There are also persons in life that take a great deal of energy from me. I intend to rectify this. So here’s my levels.
I will improve this.
My interest lies in the technical field but I like to venture out and look for mind-widening situations. Whether creating a custom mod for a website or just meeting people. However recently I’ve become sort of a hermit.I can’t watch the news anymore because everything depresses me. I think though, I can do better at socializing because I don’t do this much.
All the politicians have really dug in the heals on everything and many are diametrically opposed to my views. I try not to follow because on my level I will not see the changes they put into law.
Overall I’m doing pretty well but I can’t shake a nagging feeling that things have to be done or my life will go haywire.
Man, losing weight is hard. I’ve been trying for years and it’s been almost impossible. I always lose about 15 pounds then I gain it back within a few months. It sucks and very depressing. I don’t want to get bariatric surgery but I’m leaning towards this closer and closer. Everyone that’s obese can tell you how difficult it is.
Yep, I’m At Another Crossroads in My Life
I did a project with one of the artists I’ve worked with for many years, we even had a well know producer as an A&R (Dallas Austin). At the completion, we all agreed that the project was a classic. I felt very strongly about it on the positive side.
Here’s where it gets a little tricky. I’ve had Lyor Cohen listen to the material and tell me my sound is dated. I’ve had Russell Simmons listen to and tell me that I don’t have the shit in it.
I’ve love to create music, but I’m tired of hitting a wall every single time I finish a project.
I’ve even got scammed by the ultimate scammer Mike Baril.
Should I continue and keep going?
Or Should I Keep It Going?
Adult Decisions Can Be Extremely Hard
Last week I found out that my partner of 12 years will have to be put down soon. This is due to growths on her mammary glands. This really sucks. I don’t want her to suffer but I don’t want to just put her down when she has a good amount of life left. When you’re young sometimes these situations can be easy because it’s out of your hands and someone else older makes the decision. But when you’re older, the buck stops with you. Only you can make this kind of Adult Decision.
This is my world, but I know others are dealing with just as extreme or even more extreme decisions.
Choosing whether any kind of being lives or dies is very stressful.
In the past I’ve watched a close relative slow walk towards that slow road to death through hospice. It wasn’t pretty and didn’t feel good at all.
Why be awestruck with celebrities who have never accomplished anything?
It always amazes me how people follow celebrities. How they get awestruck of a single person. We’ve all been born to this earth and time the same way. We all have been challenged the same as everyone else. I just don’t get how a person can become so obsessed with an entity so that they follow them around or even stalk them.
On the other hand, I do have mutual respect for persons who’ve accomplish major things in their life. I like seeing this because it’s a motivational and inspirational factor. Almost an internal call to action.
It’s really quite interesting when you’re an artist and you come up with a concept and you complete your art with a certain direction only to be told by an industry exec that the concept can’t make money. But your initial direction was not to make money was just to make art. Got to have thick skin when you’re an artist and stay true to who you are and really know what you’re trying to present. Not everybody’s going to love what you do just as long as you do.
If you’re going to chase the rabbit, get ready to jump through hoops and become something who you’re not.
If you want to do it without the majors, make your art sell on its own so they can’t tell you shit!