In life, you have to reach for what you want or get left behind. Some people are ready to put in the hard work, some people are not. The people who are a success are usually the ones that put in the work and they are reaping the rewards. He’s a soundtrack vibe I wrote to express this feeling.
So it’s cooled down a little. Since the summer things have picked up at my regular job. Yes, My job prevents me from being creative. When you’re sensitive and you used the outside world to give you inspiration, the stress from everyday living can block you from being creative. I know first hand. Being a composer and artist I come up with creations. My job somewhat affords me to get this accomplished but not fully as I like to express and be creative in many different areas. I’m a composer, a graphic designer, a videographer, a photographer, a painter (even though I haven’t done this in years I’m great at this), a game designer, and I build websites. A master being an entrepreneur and a powerful marketer, I’m good but I always think I can learn something new. I’m only graded from my last success.
More and to the point, time will be put aside in order to get some of my creative projects finished.
I did a project with one of the artists I’ve worked with for many years, we even had a well know producer as an A&R (Dallas Austin). At the completion, we all agreed that the project was a classic. I felt very strongly about it on the positive side.
Here’s where it gets a little tricky. I’ve had Lyor Cohen listen to the material and tell me my sound is dated. I’ve had Russell Simmons listen to and tell me that I don’t have the shit in it.
I’ve love to create music, but I’m tired of hitting a wall every single time I finish a project.
I’ve even got scammed by the ultimate scammer Mike Baril.
I’ve gone over 10 years without sex and I’m not crazy. Do I want to have it? Yes of course. Will I settle for just anyone? No. I hope I meet the woman of my dreams but I seem to be looking at the world through jaded glasses of 10 years ago. It’s just like when you search for a job, that expectation of not knowing what’s in store and hoping it’s the right fit. That proof you want to prove to yourself and others that you deserve it. I’ve been focused on that one big push and that one big goal and I’ve haven’t been able to smell the coffee and take in the sites.
What if I never reach my goal? I would be just reaching and never achieving. I’m using sex as a literal meaning and a metaphor of life and wanting to use my skills for what they’re supposed to be used for.
Working on a photoshoot for Adolph Johns Black Xavier upcoming album “Live Love and Die”. RAW untouched. #indiggochild
Let me know what you think. We shot this at Astoria park in Queens New York on a really overcast day.
Who has all the answers? Not me. I’ve been looking online for some inspiration and was surprised to find out how many people have an “expert opinion”. My opinion they’re in the same boat as everyone else. Call me a pessimist but that’s my opinion.
Anyway my direction in music lately has been all over the place and it’s been hard to stay focus after not working on certain genres for a period of time. The new music I’ve been working which is more electronic in nature is more inspiring to me at this point then R&B, Hip-Hop and Pop.
Fried Chicken Spanish Rice Video from Natural